{"id":1839,"date":"2008-06-26T12:01:17","date_gmt":"2008-06-26T17:01:17","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.shotinthedark.info\/wp\/?p=1839"},"modified":"2008-06-26T11:10:30","modified_gmt":"2008-06-26T16:10:30","slug":"it-was-twenty-years-ago-today-part-jjj","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/www.shotinthedark.info\/wp\/?p=1839","title":{"rendered":"It Was Twenty Years Ago Today, Part LXXXI"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>It was Sunday, June 26, 1988.<\/p>\n<p>There truly wasn&#8217;t much going on in my life around this time.<\/p>\n<p>My nights involved going to work at one gawdforsaken bar or another, six nights a week.<\/p>\n<p>The good news &#8211; I was the best &#8220;jock&#8221; the DJ service had, and they told me so; my boss said that &#8220;I can put you in any bar I have &#8211; R&#8217;nB, Rock and Roll, oldies, County Western, background music, whatever &#8211; and they love you&#8221;. And they were putting me in different bars, at least; after months of bouncing back and forth between &#8220;Jams&#8221; in Brooklyn Center and &#8220;City Limits&#8221; in Rosemount, I was starting to get into some more places.<\/p>\n<p>The bad news &#8211; I got put in every bar they had. It&#8217;s not like they got any better than Jams or City Limits, for crying out loud.\u00a0 You had your choice; sleazy R&#8217;nB bars, redneck Rock and Roll dumps, tired and empty Oldies bars, malignant &#8220;country&#8221; joints, and somnolent &#8220;none of the above&#8221; lounges. All of them equally depressing.<\/p>\n<p>And, truth be told, that&#8217;s just what I was. Depressed. I&#8217;d been going at the talk radio job hunt for over a year, now. Nothing.<\/p>\n<p>My station-calling had slowed to a trickle. Every week or two, I&#8217;d get a flash of inspiration&#8230;<\/p>\n<p>&#8230;no. That&#8217;s not true.\u00a0 It wasn&#8217;t &#8220;inspiration&#8221;. It was a flash of desperation &#8211; a sudden, searing flash of panic; &#8220;THIS IS HOW MY WHOLE F****NG LIFE IS GOING TO BE&#8221; would beat my eyes open at 9AM, and I&#8217;d race downstairs, a curdled ball of panic in my stomach that would impel me to an hour or two of frantic, despairing calling, more to say I&#8217;d <em>done<\/em> it, sort of like a ticket-punching ritual done for its own sake than out of any hope that there&#8217;d be anything on the other end of the line. Think of rebound dating.<\/p>\n<p>I&#8217;d get to the end of these sessions feeling worse than when I&#8217;d started. And yet there I went &#8211; every week or so, it&#8217;d overwhelm me again.<\/p>\n<p>Again &#8211; sort of like rebound dating.<\/p>\n<p>&#8212;&#8212;&#8212;-<\/p>\n<p>One change &#8211; Wyatt had finally driven <a href=\"http:\/\/www.shotinthedark.info\/wp\/?p=2031\">our other roommate, Dan<\/a>, out earlier in the month. Oddly, for as amazingly promiscuous a man as he was (he said with a straight face at about this time that &#8220;my goal in life is to f*** every woman in the world&#8221;), he had a very dim impression of gays. &#8220;I don&#8217;t like faggots&#8221;, he said many times. He did his best to live up to both statements. The women bit &#8211; well, that should be obvious.<\/p>\n<p>As to Dan? His property &#8211; including several of his paychecks &#8211; started disappearing. By early May, Wyatt had taken to actively antagonizing Dan&#8217;s boyfriend. He did it when I wasn&#8217;t around &#8211; I heard about it all second-hand&#8230;<\/p>\n<p>&#8230;but by the end of May, Dan had had enough. He gave notice.<\/p>\n<p>A day or two later &#8211; in early June &#8211; Dan and a few friends showed up with a truck and moved him out in during the day, while Wyatt and I were out. He left me a note &#8211; he just couldn&#8217;t deal with Wyatt&#8217;s BS anymore.<\/p>\n<p>So that made for an extra-large rent payment, and a payment to the <em>Pioneer Press<\/em> to put an ad in the &#8220;Roomates Wanted&#8221; section.<\/p>\n<p>&#8212;&#8212;&#8212;-<\/p>\n<p>But that was the closest thing to excitement that I managed. My days during this brutally hot summer were very, very circumscribed. I&#8217;d wake up around 9ish. I&#8217;d have something to eat, usually. I&#8217;d jump on my bike and ride most of the day &#8211; unless something was broken, which would involve a half-day quest to roll my bike laboriously to a repair shop. If I was feeling especially industrious or motivated, I might stop at the Dairy Queen, or the library, or ride down to Crosby Park, or&#8230;well, whatever rolled my way, really. If I was <em>not <\/em>feeling motivated, I&#8217;d ride to see how dry my mouth would get before I could take a drink, or how yellow my pee could get, or how many of my old apartments and houses I could reach, or how many miles I could ride without seeing <em>anything <\/em>interesting. Some days, I did nothing but ride box grids in different neighborhoods; others, I&#8217;d just pick a street and ride it to the end, or as far as I could get before I had to turn around to get back for work.<\/p>\n<p>Looking back (because I&#8217;d never have put it this way back then) most days&#8217; rides would have bookends of despair; at the beginning of the ride, I was pounding out the miles to forget about how awful it felt to be so&#8230;aimless. Such a <em>failure<\/em>. And at the end, there was the dull ache of knowing I had to wash up and go to yet another awful bar.<\/p>\n<p>I&#8217;d have something to eat (usually a baked potato stuffed with cheese and onions), then off to whatever the bar of the evening was. I&#8217;d grab the traditional after-work drink at the bars that allowed it, drive carefully home, and check in for the latest in Wyatt&#8217;s game of musical women. About half the nights, Wyatt would have hooked up with some girl he&#8217;d met at his day job during the day, and would have Teresa, his hot blond &#8220;steady&#8221; girlfriend, over at night. On the other nights &#8211; when Teresa worked (she was a night nurse at a nursing home), they&#8217;d bump uglies in the afternoon, and Wyatt&#8217;d pick up some other floozie at Christenson&#8217;s or the Belmont or O&#8217;Gara&#8217;s for the evening&#8217;s entertainment. I figured that Wyatt was boffing, on the average, with between four and seven <em>different <\/em>women a week. Every week.<\/p>\n<p>Which was, in and of itself, depressing.<\/p>\n<p>I&#8217;d usually fall asleep reading a book, to the sound of Wyatt and whomever-it-was having thudding, drunken, arklahoma-inflected, drug-enhanced sex in the next room, or having a thudding, drunken, arklahoma-inflected, drug-enhanced argument about something or another.<\/p>\n<p>And then I&#8217;d wake up, and it&#8217;d start again.<\/p>\n<p>Every f*****g day.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>It was Sunday, June 26, 1988. There truly wasn&#8217;t much going on in my life around this time. My nights involved going to work at one gawdforsaken bar or another, six nights a week. 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